Friday, October 14, 2005

Oh snap......

First of all, I am an attention whore. I need people to be looking at me and saying wow, that guy is cool. The rods kinda did that for me, but not enough. So I made my boat yellow. That works good. I went from 0 - 60 with an arm full of ink. That works good. I am going to build a bike that turns heads. That should work good.


Second, my mistakes. I should never have gotten married at 20 years old. I should never had a baby at 22 years old. I should have went to college. I should have not stopped working out at 25. There are probably more, but those are the ones that bug me the most.
Now I am not saying that those first two ruined my life, but I am saying they sent me down a life path that I am now wishing was different. I love my ladies, and will protect and provide for them as long as I can. I will be with them forever, it is too expensive not to be.
I wish I had done other things with my life, and now I am steering my current life in a direction that is going to make me happy. Maybe I will die on that motorcycle, maybe I will die when the next elk comes flying through my truck window. Maybe I will die the next time I take my sled out to Bouy 10. Maybe I will die the next time I run across the road. I don't wanna live my whole life worried about an untimely death, that's not living, that is life waiting for death.

I don't like looking deep into myself, there are things in there that I have always been told were bad and sinful. They must stay there, at least for now.

6 Comments:

At 5:14 PM, Blogger Ron, apparently said...

That'll be the things we share at UJ's, right?

 
At 7:14 PM, Blogger ZaQ said...

wink wink

 
At 1:01 AM, Blogger McD said...

I'm here to ruin your party...finally!

Your fish smells like pussy!!

http://omshaanti.blogspot.com/

 
At 11:57 PM, Blogger Mr. D said...

As long as your not dead, it's never too late...

 
At 6:58 PM, Blogger Stew said...

" I am steering my current life in a direction that is going to make me happy"

Could not have said it better myself Zaq! I've done the same thing with my fishing life. No more stressing out about who is fishing in my hole or how many fish I get. It means a lot less fish on the bank for me but it makes for a lot more enjoyable experience.
Goo luck

 
At 7:12 PM, Blogger ZaQ said...

Stew, great to hear from you, it has been a long time. I have been looking deep into myself the last few months, and realized that not even I liked the person I found.

But I still love to have a full fish box at the end of the day! Happy fishing and good luck with the casting.

 

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